melancholy

once again, the drudgery is getting to me. i go through cycles. and i don't mean just the menstrual kind -- though i wish that that is what's behind this. sigh. i slept in today (imo drove nacho and asha to school, poor kids whom i didn't even get up to pack lunches for). then, poor yumi, whom i did get up for a minute to fix lunch for, which was cereal and milk, then i went back to bed. when i finally decided to get out of bed and put on my face, there wasn't time to pause, even to have a quick lunch. there were errands to run, homework (a major project, can i say), soccer practice, dinner to cook, tidying up, more homework, more tidying up. all by my lonesome. i am so tired. in spite of all the sleep i just got. plus i haven't even done any volunteer work at the kids' schools. or gone to pilates. or cleaned the house. i kick myself and kick myself. i ought to be more thankful, i tell myself. after everything we've been through, i know too well how transient everything is. the only thing that kept me going today was the thought of fixing myself a cup of coffee. and now that the children are in bed, it's time.

but first, a couple of happy things:

i found a laura nyro record at the thrift store a few days ago. the album "it's gonna take a miracle." i gasped. i also maybe squealed a little. i love laura nyro.

i am now officially in love with fiore. their sandwiches and their cafe latte are divine. thank goodness it's just right next door to yumi's preschool. maybe i will treat myself and yumi to some of their food again tomorrow (i've gone twice this week already). yes, i think that will make up for the sad cereal i fed her for lunch today.

and some photos from the past weekend --

could they be magic mushrooms?